Pre-Note

Dear friends
It's not your fault
I was not meant for this world
You see
No one loves me
And I myself will never be loved
I became so desperate
I let someone beat me
Just for fake love
I wish you could love me
But I hide it, oh too well
You know I might just tell you
I'll write letters
For everyone
Even you
And so on
You see
I could care for millions of people
And not one cares for me
I am always alone
I shouldn't even talk
Look where it's got me
I was stupid
I gave my wings to someone
He hurts them
And he feels no pain
I feel the pain
People have tried to give me wings
But I just can't take them
I don't want people like me
A dull gray bird
Unable to fly
My purpose is to help others
But is gray birds we are the ones to die first
And   I'm grey
So this is my pre note
To apologize
For any pain
It may be all
That maybe somethings are made to die
Some are to live
Maybe if someone loved me
I would bloom into a beautiful blue or red bird
But for now, my wings are gray
I'm sorry
I don't know why like this
They just laugh at me
It's just laughter
But then why does it hurt so much.
Or when people talk about me
I mean
I haven't talked at lunch for two days
And you don't even worry
Sorry